“That’s all we have, finally, the words, and they had better be the right ones.”  — Raymond Carver

“That’s all we have, finally, the words, and they had better be the right ones.”
Raymond Carver

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I stride down the grassy fields painted with the loudest pastel brush of indulgent artisans, whose hue screams the loudest decibel of green green green, and whose sugary square Absinthesque creatures, scattered edible-y across the plain, remind me that I am perhaps dreaming up these deep deep deep colors of unbridled joy. At the juncture of Heel-upon-Turf and Breathe Easy, I stand happy, peaceful.

beautiful

joymelancholia.

cold hands, warm pockets

Even the long walk down the wild and rugged terrain of Truth loses its magnificence a few hundred miles later.  But while novelties wear off, this walkabout is not for free, there was no turning back a few miles ago, and there is no need to alter bearings now despite the metallic smell of corroding newness and the fading excitement of interesting journal entries. A few hundred miles up this treacherous wilderness of discovery cannot be crossed without examining the few thousand selves that I had previously created, embodied, and intransigently lived into.  But like the decomposition of past selves, rusting novelties do not come without their silver linings either: they have turned my attentions to the inner, and the inner wants to make peace with the warring impulses that instigated this journey. I now find myself imagining chimneys in every strange and foreign neighborhood my path encounters.  Short stocky grey-brick chimneys with peaty smoke levitating along smooth updrafts and into the soft windcurrents of the quiet night. In imagined chimneys I have found the sooty bells of peace, where dreamt-up jazz players are blowing their horns near the logfire that fills me with the warmth of an obscure metaphor that is too layered for lingual interpretation. A meta metaphor – the one that slipped through the cracks of objectivism into the realm of the esoteric. I look for the metaphor that quells all others – a No Need to Explain situation.

Maybe they have all arrived somewhere similar, those who’ve taken this path.

Life begins at the hop

Life begins at the hop

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Didgeridoo, and a Saudade-bound soul.  Love

never mind me

twenty five years, and still far from home. One or two more 25s won’t do. I wonder if I should get off before I drift much farther. A 120 days ago I were reset for another lifetime, then again weeks ago, then again in 250 days. The destinations are becoming farther. The energy has worn out. And the girls man, pale. The liquor is dry. The smoke is heavy. No tolerance for tales. No mercy for the doomed. No remorse. No pity. Madness is outrageously disregarded, and our attempts ring mute among their bells. Which song to play next?

Sympathy for the Devil.

No.

Blues.

No.

Paranoid eyes?

No.

Sailing makes sense now, I’ve read about a month-long training programme to join a tall-ship crew for a year sailing along the shores of Scotland and southern seas. I wonder if one could get music on-board. How else can I put up with the anxiety?

There are no set playlists for this trip. No rules. You ride the tide. Fantastic. Blame the tide. All I needed throughout this journey was to be able to blame the tide. But no. I’d be blamed for riding it. And it’s true in a sense, at least in terms of physics. The shore is where the party is. Everyone who knows anything knows that. They know it. The girls know it. They’re chemically attracted to the sea, but they know once they give in - they’ve lost, they come at such arguments early in life — porn triggers these questions. You can’t win over the ocean. But you win over everything you left behind - all that’s pale, dry and heavy.

There are no set co-ordinates. I can’t recall a point of departure. Just today I was reminded of my birth which almost killed my mother, I was finally surgically evicted, my mother went on morphine and I went on probation. We met days later. There are fewer witnesses to that now since many of them have been long dead. At one point, all witnesses would be dead, morphine would still be around. No departure point, indeed.

— Sedki60 Sadeeki

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